I used a thesaurus to decide on the use of “mercurial” in that subject header. Just thought I’d confess that.
In maintaining the essence of self-care, I thought I’d write about how inconsistent my sleep has been. Apparently hormonal changes can affect your sleep–particularly PMS can cause insomnia. I like sleeping. I don’t like not being able to sleep. It’s funny, because as I write this at 2:21 in the morning (to be published at a later date and time), I feel quite energetic. Annoyingly energetic, actually. It could be many things in addition to hormones–the sake I had with sushi for dinner, the scoop of ice cream I had after dinner. I’ve also started a regular, more vigorous (than yoga) exercise routine 3 days a week. It’s been great because it’s left me with more energy. However, I’m not terribly sure how to expend that energy yet. Also, I’ve fallen a bit off of doing yoga consistently. I still utilize yoga stretches, but I don’t take much time to do them. Maybe I need more yoga to calm my nervous system.
The other night I fell asleep on the couch for about an hour, then dragged myself off to bed by 1 a.m. At 4, my fiance awoke and stirred me. I laid in bed for an hour and couldn’t go back to sleep so I got up and worked on some wedding planning. At about 8 that morning I went back to bed and slept for another hour or so. That night I then went to bed at nearly 3 a.m. Today I took a 3.2-mile walk with the hope of making myself a bit tired but, here I am again… almost 3 a.m. Staring at the laptop in the dark living room.
Not sleeping leaves me with such a strange feeling. Not only does my short-term memory go to shit (couldn’t remember the word “insomnia” while writing this, ironically), but also I get so jittery and my eyeballs ache. Is it the blue light from all the screens I’ve surrounded myself with–television, phone, laptop?
Just had a big yawn. I have promises to keep, and hopefully no more miles to go before I sleep. Another workout tomorrow at 10:25 a.m. I better try to rest now.
May good things (and good rest) come to you always.